I’m soon going to start looking under my bed every night. Not for glowing eyes or unidentifiable storybook creatures that scurry back to their worlds when the lights suddenly flick on. No. I’m going to keep an eye out for the Jewish mother that provides me with a constant supply of frowns, finger wags, and stink-eyes. She must be there, what other source could there be for the endless guilt weighing me down lately? Guilt over how great things could be, but instead are mediocre because I’m either too lazy, too uncoordinated, or too all-over-the-map to make things AWESOME.
Not one to speak abashedly about my feelings (at least publicly), I must say, I’ve been feeling underwhelmed. In regards to pretty much everything; myself, my photography, my customer service, my house, my camera equipment, my car, my website, my relationships, my blog, my refrigerator contents, my bursting-at-the-seams laundry bag, my dog, my house (it’s worth a second mention). The fact that these things are all a little out of control and unorganized is a virtually unrelenting source of guilt. And then I feel guilty for feeling guilty over the trivial things.
So why share this heaping, steaming, pile of displeasure with you? Because you need to help get me motivated and I need to help YOU get motivated. What’s holding you back? What are you doing half-assed that you could be doing AWESOME? Do you have questions? I may have the answers…we all have something to share afterall.
Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans. Be the change you wish to see. And ya know, yada yada yada. I’m brewing up an idea, ney, a stroke of genius, to get at least some of your butts moving! You can’t change everything about your life all in one swoop, but you sure can chip away at things one day, and one success, at a time. Announcement coming soon!
Me being AWESOME a couple of weeks ago in NYC:
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Oy vey! lol
Can’t wait to hear what it is!
Funny you should talk about this today of all days…
…this morning I was walking back from preschool (with 4 children under the age of 5) I looked down at myself and realized I was not the picture of youth and beauty I once was….
…oh no… today I was wearing sweat pants, had not brushed my teeth or done anything to ‘clean’ myself up… the worse part was the sweat pants were bagged out ones I bought when I first got married almost 10YEARS ago….
….ohhh indeed it was a saaaaaaad moment.
Perhaps my goal will be to NOT look like a homeless person whilest going to fetch my daughter from school…
Precisely! Start tomorrow by brushing your teeth
And Janice, I know you’re a perfectionist that must be riddled with guilty little tidbits!
This is something I NEED to hear! This is me, feeling guilty, but never changing or improving….making plans, as life goes on without me. Wow, even sadder to say it out loud (so to speak)…can’t wait, Lori!
Laura you’ve done so much with your life! Finishing school with two small kids? Pffft no easy task!
I am the worlds biggest procrastinator! I have lots of goals and to do lists, they are just cluttered in the mess I call life. Not knowing where I should start is half my problem!
Like you wouldn’t believe. I knew EXACTLY what you were talking about in this post. I think my biggest breakthrough came in getting over the guilt of not fitting into the “9-5 real job” mold. Once I, and those who expected certain things of me, let go of who I thought I should be, the big guilt was gone. Now I just have all the little ones you mentioned. Great… now I’m all verklempt. haha
Doing anything with small kids is a miracle, so WTG Laura! Ur my hero!
If I were to write a list, I would have put my house in it twice as well…Oh my, so much to do it can be overwhelming at times.
Lori…
need i remind you how you impacted a number of teens this fall? be encouraged… no matter what season you are in, you don’t have to stay there…it’s the beauty in the message of SPRING - SUMMER is coming!
oy. my list sounds like your list. Motivation will come in the spring… won’t it? oy.
Ohhh, can’t wait!