I’m soon going to start looking under my bed every night. Not for glowing eyes or unidentifiable storybook creatures that scurry back to their worlds when the lights suddenly flick on. No.  I’m going to keep an eye out for the Jewish mother that provides me with a constant supply of frowns, finger wags, and stink-eyes. She must be there, what other source could there be for the endless guilt weighing me down lately? Guilt over how great things could be, but instead are mediocre because I’m either too lazy, too uncoordinated, or too all-over-the-map to make things AWESOME.

Not one to speak abashedly about my feelings (at least publicly), I must say, I’ve been feeling underwhelmed.  In regards to pretty much everything; myself, my photography, my customer service, my house, my camera equipment, my car, my website, my relationships, my blog, my refrigerator contents, my bursting-at-the-seams laundry bag, my dog, my house (it’s worth a second mention).  The fact that these things are all a little out of control and unorganized is a virtually unrelenting source of guilt.  And then I feel guilty for feeling guilty over the trivial things.

So why share this heaping, steaming, pile of displeasure with you? Because you need to help get me motivated and I need to help YOU get motivated.  What’s holding you back? What are you doing half-assed that you could be doing AWESOME? Do you have questions? I may have the answers…we all have something to share afterall.

Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans. Be the change you wish to see.  And ya know, yada yada yada. I’m brewing up an idea, ney, a stroke of genius, to get at least some of your butts moving! You can’t change everything about your life all in one swoop, but you sure can chip away at things one day, and one success, at a time. Announcement coming soon!

Me being AWESOME a couple of weeks ago in NYC: